I feel sick for all the wrong reasons, and it's tearing me apart. Last night we went to a family friends place because it was her birthday, she has a son called Bryn and he's a year older than me. Before now we have been just friends since I was 1, we used to send birthday cards and pretend to be vampires in his cubby house and run naked under the sprinkler. Well now we are older I realized how much I liked him and how damn hot he was. He obviously thought the same and we exchanged numbers. We then went home at 11 and texted each other till 2 in the morning which eventuated with us going out and planning to kiss the next day (I know it sounds retarded D. So we met down at the park as planned and we hugged. This was amazing just a simple hug his arms around me and my arms around him and it felt so wonderful I'd never touched him in that way before. We didn't kiss, it just felt to awkward after knowing each other so long instead we talked about bike crashes and falling over.... fun.

So now I'm not sure what to do I've texted him but he hasn't texted back. In my heart I REALLY do want to kiss him but we are both too shy, and for that I feel sick and awkward.